To quote batman begins, “what do we do when we fall down? We get back up” I have fallen time and time again, most of the time i have gotten up, but yesterday I fell hard, it felt like i couldn’t get up, I was looking down the barrel of losing everything, and I broke. I cried and screamed for god, cursing him for not answering, but the truth is he is answering, answering in a way I can only realise this morning. He is telling me to continue on and keep pushing forward. It’s not going to be easy, and nothing in life that’s worth having is , my heart has a massive crack in it over life. But I can’t play the victim, things have happened in my life that shouldn’t have but that doesn’t mean they are going to define me, as much as i have let them in the past. I need to stand up tall and say i am strong, and unmovable in my convictions. Marching to the beat of my own drum and no one else’s. I’m tired and hungry, beaten down but i’m not out.
Life is hard, and who says it shouldn’t be. But it can be fun and full of magical moments, and that’s what I’m going to focus on, those little moments that give me a push , helping me know I’m on the right track. I want to look back on these moments and say they are the moments that changed me for the better.